beyond the world, to the end of time

Feeveer

2010-01-19T19:42:00.001+08:00

gosh i'm damn hot today.
HAHA as in i'm having fever, sore throat, blocked nose, you know, common flu. aaii.
just now when my temperature was 39 degrees celsius, i really felt like my whole brain was on fire. my hair was hot too! lol.
at least now i'm slightly better. sigh really hope to be back in school tomorrow... poor jan is alone...WITH MEL! sympathise with her man...
oh and i had to miss claudia's birthday celebration today.SAD!

dear God, i pray that you'll bless claudia with spiritual growth as she turns a year older. i pray that you'll be able to remove her fears and insecurities. i also pray that you'll be with peining. let her get her priorities right, and follow her heart. i pray that she'll be able to be accepted for CAP, with all her hard work and great desire to go for it. AMEN!(:

ah start of another tiring week. i can feel it. it's gonna be a bad start.

2010-01-17T22:06:00.002+08:00

ohh. tomorrow's monday. attack of the killer homework. and endless shoulder aches. and headaches. arrh.
resolution for the week: to take on everything like a child of God!

oh and to study for the tests. what tests are there again?

day of depression

2010-01-17T16:03:00.004+08:00

awww... i had to miss combined service today, to do homework at home!! gosh so depressing... i still gotta finish one history mindmap, find red straws for jan, and do 阅读集成! what a bad day...
nevermind, i shall not be so pessimistic and finish today's work today! or this weeks work this week. haha :X

dear God, i pray for today's combined service to be meaningful to everyone, and that you'll allow us to understand your word more. let all of us be enlightened by your presence! bless hope church on this day, when all our brothers and sisters in Christ gather together to praise you, and worship you. we thank you for blessing those who are able to be there today, and we pray for those who are unable to go, pray that you'll still watch over them and love them. AMEN! :D

what a totally weird day

2010-01-16T22:16:00.002+08:00

ok today was... wrong.
i went to buy dried goods and new year stuff with my mum at some place in waterloo street. then when i was waiting for her this weird guy in a pink polo tee and white specs came to talk to me. WHAT THE! damn weird. i almost shouted for my mummy to come!
haha at least he wasn't a stalker. he said that his younger sister was in st nicks, sec 4. my senior hah! but why would he know me anyway...?
ok enough of that. wonder how peining's workshop was. must have been fun yeah? at least someone's having a nice weekend :D
ahh i really need to go back to my old, bubbly self. this is driving me CRAZY, CRAZY, CRAZY ABOUT YOU BABY. haha aerosmith song.

oopsy, that was really RANDOMM.:0

dear God, i pray that tomorrow's combined service will be a great one and that it'll help our sisters and brothers in Christ love you more, and you'll expel all our doubts and negative feelings. refresh us, and embrace us with your love. i pray that more people will come to know of your love, and learn to love you too. i pray for ned2, that we'll cope with our busy schedules, and never forget to include you in whatever we do. i pray for peining, that she'll be able to adapt to the responsibilities she has, as Your child, as a shepherd, as a sheep, and the many others she has to face in school and out of school. let your love for her show in how she does things, and the choices she makes. i also pray for baggio, that he'll grow, spiritually and mentally. be with him as he slowly learns about the difficulties this year may bring . let him choose the road you have paved for him, and not stray easily, by the outside conditions around him. i also pray for jan, that she'll have more of You in her life. i pray that you'll help her make the right choices, and let Your love fill her as she faces setbacks along the way. pick her up when she falls, and make her stronger in the process. strengthen her heart and soul, and let her be able to face the things she's afraid to face. AMEN! (:
God bless my dears :D

school. URGH.

2010-01-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

oh school is as sucky as ever... CCA and everything...
gosh i'm mentally and physically exhausted.
i don't want any of this.
i didn't ask for it.
i would kill for a moment of peace. just a moment.
a moment with God. and God alone. just God and me.
i NEED it.
my privacy's gone. everything's gone.
i don't wanna be whiny but all this stuff is really getting to me. like REALLY.
i don't want to be affected. i want very much to keep up my usual positive vibe, but i'm spending too much of it trying to cheer people up. i wouldn't usually mind, but i don't think i can take this any longer. my cheerfulness is being used up. like the health bar in a war game.
oh yes. it's like fighting an endless war. a war without victory. only loss. only causing me to lose so many of my soldiers, fighting the war in me. when will this end?

dear God, i pray that you'll calm all our disturbed and troubled hearts with your presence. i pray for peining, that her other problems will not stray her away from your path. i also pray for jan, who is struggling with her own problems. i pray for ned2, that all of our sisters' new year resolutions will somehow work out, and i pray that my top-of-the-list resolution, to bring more people to y-hope, will be able to come true. even through all my difficulties, let me be your salt and light, for you, for ned2, for the people i love and the people around me. AMEN. nights everyone.

SIGH TIME...

2009-12-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

whew time really flies when you're busy...sigh it's been a REALLY long time since i've gone for service or cgg and I REALLY MISS EVERYONE! D":

well at least i've been doing QT and everything regularly and I STILL LOVE GOD, so at least i feel better.(:

I'M GONNA MISS CAMP. THAT'S MY GREATEST REGRET OF THE HOLIDAYS. SIGH. I'M GONNA START COMPLAINING IF I CONTINUE ON THIS TOPIC SO I SHALL SWITCH TO YET ANOTHER BORING STORY OF MY PATHETIC LIFE.

hmmm i'm like in malaysia now so i shall make a short prayer.
DEAR GOD, I PRAY THAT YOU'LL BLESS PEINING SO THAT SHE'LL OVERCOME ALL HER PROBLEMS AND DOUBTS AS A NEW SHEPHERD. AND BLESS HER SHEEP SO THAT THEY MAY BE ABLE TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH HER AND LET HER UNDERSTAND THEM BETTER. ALSO BLESS HER FOR CAMP AS SHE EXPERIENCES BEING A GAME MASTER FOR THE FIRST TIME. LET HER ENJOY CAMP AND AT THE SAME TIME LEARN MORE ABOUT YOU DURING THIS PERIOD OF TIME AND BE ENRICHED WITH YOUR WISDOM. BLESS NED AT CAMP AND LET EVERYTHING PROCEED AS PLANNED! HAVE FUN PEOPLE!
I PRAY THAT YOU'LL BLESS MENGWEE TOO AS HE WILL ALSO BE A GAME MASTER! YAY! LET BOTH OF THEM BE THE BEST AND MOST FUN GAME MASTERS AT CAMP! AND BLESS CAMP TO BE MEANINGFUL AND ENJOYABLE!AMEN!(:

do i sound stupid? nevermind.

Gosh i just LOVED service!

2009-10-25T20:21:00.002+08:00

yesterday's service was great! the short skit was super cool,with the performers wearing white masks and white gloves. it was a pantomime kind of thing. COOL MAN!

the main theme was: what's next?

it really made me think a lot about what i'm gonna do next in my life. and i made a few decisions after some time spent thinking and considering the pros and cons. hmmm although it was taught by the egoistic(said by claudia) dennis, whom i have a fear of after the quiet time in toilet event, it was quite...nice. and meaningful. as in what he said luh. sigh...now i just feel like sleeping after cooking scrambled eggs and luncheon meat for yanyee. yawns...(:

dear God, i pray for tomorrow's outreach (a.k.a THE PLEDGE!) to be successful. i place my sisters in your hands, and i pray that you'll bless them, so that they,too, can be a blessing to others. in Jesus' name we pray AMEN!(:

for olivia and janice! sigh what a nice person i am...

2009-10-16T13:46:00.008+08:00

ok this one's for olivia and janice. YESUNG AND SIWON! WHEE!

WHOO LOOKS LIKE SNOW AROUND HIM..AHHH...

CUTE DOGGIE!:D

OK OLIVIA HE'S SINGING TO YOU. JUST IMAGINE...AWW SO SWEET!

Birth name :Kim Jong-woon
Born :August 24, 1984 (1984-08-24) (age 25)
Cheonan, South Chungcheong, South Korea
Origin:Seoul, South Korea
Genres:Pop, dance, R&B
Occupations :Singer, dancer, actor
Instruments :Piano
Voice types :Baritone
Years active :2005–present
Labels:SM Entertainment
Associated acts :SM Town, Super Junior, Super Junior-K.R.Y, Super Junior-Happy
Stage name:-
Hangul:예성
Hanja :藝聲
Birth name:-
Hangul 김종운
Hanja 金鐘雲

NEXT COMES...SIWON FOR JANICE!

(:

ASKING YOU TO BE QUIET JANICE!(TO YOUR ADVANTAGE PRISCILLA!TEEHEE.)

Birth name :Choi Si-won
Born :February 10, 1987 (1987-02-10) (age 22)
Seoul, South Korea
Genres:Pop, dance, R&B
Occupations :Singer, dancer, actor, model
Instruments :drums, piano
Voice types :Baritone
Years active :005–present
Labels:SM Entertainment
Associated acts :SM Town, Super Junior, Super Junior-M

sigh why are all of them so great-looking? although i can't say so for ONE or two...you get what i mean!(:

THIS GOES OUT TO YOU PEINING.(sounds like a song dedication!)

2009-10-15T20:56:00.005+08:00

sigh i'm feeling so bored and restless i decided to blog about sungmin. and i better blog sth about yesung and siwon OR I'LL BE CHOPPED INTO PIECES WHEN I GO BACK TO SCHOOL!

SEE WHO'S HERE?:D

Birth name :Lee Sung-min
Born :January 1, 1986 (1986-01-01) (age 23)
Ilsan, Goyang, Gyeonggi, South Korea
Origin:Seoul, South Korea
Genres:Pop, dance, R&B, trot
Occupations :Singer, dancer, actor, radio host
Instruments :Piano, guitar, bass guitar, drums
Voice types :Tenor
Years active :2005–present
Labels:SM Entertainment
Associated acts :SM Town, Super Junior, Super Junior-T, Super Junior-Happy
Hangul:이성민
Hanja :李晟敏

SORRY OLIVIA AND JANICE, SOME OTHER DAY OK? BYEE!:D

LOW BLOOD PRESSURE...IS IT ONLY WHEN I SEE HIM? :O I'M BECOMING ANOTHER OLIVIA!

2009-10-15T15:32:00.010+08:00

ok i have low blood pressure. so?:b
today is donghae's birthday! he's only 23, younger than yesung, STILL YOUNGER THAN SUNGMIN(sungmin's 1 january. teehee) and older than siwon, but who cares? nananeepoopoo. hahahahs i shall blog about donghae. LIKE THE OLIVIA, WHO HAS AN OBSESSION WITH YESUNG. HAHAHAH.

SUCH A NOT BAD SHOE. HMMM...

SOFT TOYS! SO CUTE!(:

DONGHAE AND TEUKIE HERE.

Hangul:이동해
Hanja:李東海
Birth name:Lee Dong-hae
Born:October 15, 1986 (1986-10-15) (age 23)
Mokpo, Jeollanam, South Korea
Origin:Seoul, South Korea
Genres:Pop, dance, R&B
Occupations :Singer, dancer, actor
Instruments :Piano, guitar
Voice types :Tenor(the high voice, only for capable singers like donghae!)
Years active :2005–present
Labels:SM Entertainment
Associated acts :SM Town, Super Junior, Super Junior-M

SHOULD I START CALLING HIM DONGIE? OR DONG DONG? SOME OTHER MUSHY NAME? HMM THAT'S SOMETHING TO CONSIDER...

1.2.3. BOOMZ!

2009-10-09T20:10:00.003+08:00

gosh. eoys are FINALLY OVER.at least the studying part is.:D
maths was totally...BOOMZ. and well, geog and hist was quite ok. science was generally fine except for the physics part. :D i feel...BOOMZ.
HAHAHEEHEEHOOHOO WHEE! i can't take it myself! all that BOOMZ-ing here and BOOMZ-ing there. :b
hmm...feeling kinda childish now. dunno why.(: anyway i've been having a lot of emotional outbursts recently...i guess only those who care enough and have the time o visit me here will get to know! Aii see, being emo again!
i still remember yesterday after i told my mum that the maths paper was difficult she kept asking and asking about how i think i would do. i don't think she knows but I HATE THAT. the paper's over, i should concentrate on what's coming up rather than what has passed! so i was a bit pissed and i guess i did raise my voice a little. then she started screaming her head off about how rude i was(i'm sure i was too tired then to really be rude) and then she was like, i don't want a daughter like you. i will not care about you from now. sigh i was totally depressed about what she said. so i just went to my room and cried and cried myself to sleep. sigh, she doesn't seem to know how much her words seem to me. i'm so stressed studying, yet i still took out a large part of my time planning for her birthday on monday. SHE NEVER SEES MY EFFORT. SHE ONLY SEES RESULT. that's what i don't like. then she'll try to infer(like history!) from your results how much effort you put in. no matter how much effort i put into what she wants me to do, i never seem able to meet her expectations...i hate my life. all i can do now is pray that her birthday celebration will go great.

then again i keep crying and crying for nothing. i can just listen to a song and start crying. i can just cry in the middle of studying. i can cry anytime. i don't know what's wrong with me. i really don't.

EXAMS!!!

2009-10-04T15:05:00.002+08:00

i guess this is what everyone will be complaining about during this period of time. I'M NOT. what a miracle! hahahs i'm actually not complaining about exams, about having to study so hard, about everything. sigh i'm not my usual self recently. even minsheng and jason said so...
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME THEN??? CAN ANYONE TELL ME??
oh i'm kinda upset about my failed mooncakes and my failed life. i'm such a failure man...
OOPS!THE EMO DISEASE IS INFECTING ME! THIS IS BAD THIS IS BAD...

happy birthday yanyee!

2009-09-23T21:01:00.004+08:00

WHY ARE THERE SO MANY BIRTHDAYS IN SEPTEMBER?! I'M GOING BROKE!!!
hahahs anyway happy 14th birthday yanyee! wishing you all the best in everything you do, and hope you'll have fun in school!
whew what a tiring day. french was quite fun, i must say, and i understood A LOT of stuff today!(: hmmm maybe things ARE starting to go well for me...:D

pineapple tarts!

2009-09-20T17:17:00.003+08:00

sigh yesterday i couldn't go for service...
i went to faye's house to experiment new pastries. we tried making pineapple tarts again and it was successful! YAY!
there was too much extra dough, so we used the remaining chocolate chips from the previous cupcakes to try and make chocolate tarts, and it actually worked! WOW!
hahahs. we also made some cookies, the usual chocolate and cranberry cookies, white chocolate oatmeal cookies. and we tried a new kind of cookie. what did we try ah? i forgot. i only remember that it was successful! :D
actually the chocolate tarts were kinda burnt (CHAOTAR!!!) so i decided to give yauxuan the nicer ones. then faye stole it and ate all those i was gonna give yauxuan. -.- how nice of you faye. thanks alot man!):
ahhh today i went out with my parents for the whole day. tired...and i actually went to swim like, 12 laps. HOW DID I DO THAT? now i'm like, super exhausted. i'm yawning as i watch super junior's animal farm. SHINDONG'S HORRIBLE!!!D:

thank god for you claudia!

2009-09-13T16:50:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY DURING SERVICE, CLAUDIA CONVERTED! YAY THANK GOD FOR HER! SHE'S MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE!

hahahs service was super fun, and quite a few visitors came. thank god for them too! (:

yesterday pastor shirley talked about rebuilding stuff in our lives to make it better. after i went home, i had a small argument with my mum over some trivial stuff(i forgot what), then my dad had to add in something to make things worse. so in a moment of anger, i shouted at him. after a while, i thought about service and what pastor shirley said, so i decided to apologise to my dad for shouting at him. and i did. but maybe because he was still angry,he said that he hated me and wondered why he has such a daughter like me. i felt sad, so i did quiet time, made a prayer, and felt better. (: then today, my dad started talking to me again! THANK GOD!(:

sometimes i feel bad for not being able to go for service and caregroup gatherings regularly, cuz God has done so much in my life, yet i'm not able to serve Him. then i remember that God understands us and our situations, sometimes even better than ourselves, and i immediately feel happier! so i will give thanks to God for being such a great savior to us, and for listening to us when we have problems. God will always be with us, no matter when or where we are, no matter how big the problem is, and He will always be there to assure us that hey, even if the world abandons you, I'll be with you! :D

如煙

2009-09-11T21:28:00.002+08:00

如煙 by 五月天

我坐在床前　望著窗外　回憶滿天　
生命是華麗錯覺　時間是賊　偷走一切

七歲那一年　抓住那隻蟬　以為能抓住夏天
十七歲的那年　吻過他的臉　就以為和他能永遠　

有沒有那麼一種永遠　永遠不改變　擁抱過的美麗都　再也不破碎
讓險峻歲月不能在臉上撒野　讓生離和死別都遙遠　有誰能聽見

我坐在床前　轉過頭看　誰在沉睡　
那一張蒼老的臉　好像是我　緊閉雙眼

曾經是愛我的　和我深愛的　都圍繞在我身邊
帶不走的那些　遺憾和眷戀　就化成最後一滴眼淚

有沒有那麼一滴眼淚　能洗掉後悔　化成大雨降落在　回不去的街
再給我一次機會　將故事改寫　還欠了他一生的　一句抱歉

有沒有那麼一個世界　永遠不天黑　星星太陽萬物都　聽我的指揮
月亮不忙著圓缺　春天不走遠　樹梢緊緊擁抱著樹葉　有誰能聽見

耳際　眼前　此生重演　是我來自漆黑　而又回歸漆黑
人間　瞬間　天地之間　下次我　又是誰

有沒有那麼一朵玫瑰　永遠不凋謝　永遠驕傲和完美　永遠不妥協
為何人生最後會像一張紙屑　還不如一片花瓣曾經鮮豔

有沒有那麼一張書籤　停止那一天　最單純的笑臉和　最美那一年
書包裡面裝滿了蛋糕和汽水　雙眼只有無猜和無邪　讓我們無法無天

有沒有那麼一首詩篇　找不到句點　青春永遠定居在　我們的歲月
男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋　笑忘人間的苦痛　只有甜美

有沒有那麼一個明天　重頭回一遍　讓我再次感受曾　揮霍的昨天
無論生存或生活　我都不浪費　不讓故事這麼的後悔

有誰能聽見　我不要告別
我坐在床前　看著指尖　已經如煙

what a sad song...makes me think about my grandfather, who passed away three years ago. sigh...

dear God, i pray for those who are on the brink of death. take them into your kingdom, and love them the way you love us. i pray for those who are ill to get well soon. AMEN! :D

OUCH!!! MY STIFF NECK!!

2009-09-10T19:44:00.004+08:00

maybe it's because of quiet time ON THE BED for too long.
maybe it's because i didn't sleep well.
maybe...
I DUNNO!! ALL I KNOW IS THAT MY STIFF NECK HURTS!!!

i had this stupid nightmare about broken toenails. and i woke up screaming "AAHH!! WHERE'S MY TOENAIL??!!" thanks man jack. thanks for your fantastic helmet job on my toenail. HOW LONG DO I HAVE TO WAIT FOR MY NICE TOENAIL TO GROW OUT??? bleh. sigh never mind my complaints shall stop here. God has already made my life so great, what else do i have to complain? :D

hmm today i went to sun plaza to buy a card for yx. AND I LOST IT. sigh i shall just write a simple note for yx. no choice! just hope he doesn't mind! :s

dear God, i pray for my mum to allow me to go for service this week, and all the saturdays from now on! AMEN! :D

METAMORPHOSIS!!

2009-09-09T22:04:00.003+08:00

metamorphosis will definitely be memorable!!! especially with kc to sabotage me. (now the new believers of y-hope know i do QT in the toilet!!! BOOHOOHOO.)':)

i really learnt a lot about God after metamorphosis today, although i couldn't stay for the whole thing.): never mind, at least i had fun all the time i was there!

let's see...dennis(not the anti-fb crappy person.BLEH) taught us about some stuff about the basics of Christianity, like how to know God, quiet time, prayer, etc. "Christianity is about a growing relationship with God, not a religion." i managed to remember this cuz, well, i guess it meant a lot to me and it also relates to me in some way. WOW I ACTUALLY REMEMBERED IT! I DON'T HAVE MEMORY LOSS! WHEE!:D
oh this is the most embarrassing part: we were told to set a specific time and location to meet God every day--> quiet time. THAT KAR CHIAN SABOTAGED ME AND ASKED DENNIS TO ASK ME WHILE HE WALKED DOWN THE STEPS! AAARRHH NOW EVERYONE KNOWS I DO QUIET TIME IN THE TOILET! SO EMBARRASSING!!! <--sounds like auntie lucy!

after this we went to subway for lunch. nothing much there, except for me calling peining and complaining to her about kc! hahahs.

we went back to nexus, where erm...daniel taught us about why we should care for church. (was it daniel??) we watched a video, which was really meaningful. it was about god creating stuff. then a girl (where did she pop out from?) appeared. she was pulled away from God, then she was constantly bullied by people around her. then when she wanted to go back to God,He reached out to her, but the people who bullied her formed a wall which made her unable to get into contact with God. then finally God made his way in between the bullies and protected her. SO TOUCHING!

hmm there was another break. after the other break we played games! wow they were super fun man! there was charade, some 1 2 3 4 game, which we won BIG TIME. HAHAHS the game master was like, "what's this? what's this? the other teams never made it past 10!" hahahs! although we didn't win, all that mattered to me was that through these games, sisters and brothers in Christ got together, united, learned and had fun! after the games i had to leave (unfortunately). BUT EVERYTHING I EXPERIENCED WAS CERTAINLY FUN!

dear God, we thank you for the success of today's metamorphosis. we thank you for bringing us together, all our brothers and sisters in Christ, and learning your word as we have fun and bond together. we thank you for everything. AMEN! YAY! GOD BLESS EVERYONE!!:D

life's simple. you make choices.and you don't look back.

2009-09-04T14:45:00.002+08:00

maybe continuing and persevering in God has really been tough and difficult, but i don't regret it, and i will never. NEVER. i'm in control of my own life. if i'm not out of control, i will never know that i'm in control. this is when i get it that i have control over my own life, and the choices i make. i choose to trust...God.
(sounds like an advertisement, but true.)
i decide to go for service and caregeoup gatherings as regularly as possible! God, i leave it to you. i know that you have planned everything to you. i shall live my life to the fullest! yes! hahahs feels good when you have a clear vision of what you wanna do now. even if it's for now.:D

I DON'T LOOK BACK.

shrieks NO DOCTOR NO!

2009-09-03T16:35:00.003+08:00

i am currently dying under the care of doctor adrian soo. he is killing me.
FROM DOC SOO: protest ok! i'm so gentle and nice to your toe luh.

FROM ME: would i be screaming like mad now if you are really that gentle??!! *screams in his ear*

FROM DOC SOO: cheryl loh control yourself! (sounds like pris!) and stop typing what i just said!

FROM ME: i don't care! *kicks her legs childishly, accidentally kicking the bed* OOOWWW! MY TOEEEEE!!! ADRIAN SOO! STOP TYPING! I'M BLEEDING LUH! HOW?!

FROM DOC SOO: you deserve it, mad girl... give me your toe i see.

FROM ME: how to? pull it out huh?

FROM DOC SOO: tsk! you want me to help you or not? (bad singlish right?) CHERYL LOH!!

FROM ME: my doctor is mad.(: hahahs. doc soo is getting hysterical!!! MUUUM!

FROM DOC SOO: fine, i shall not care. *walks away and acts cool*

FROM ME: WHO CARES?! *shouts after him, then fakes pain* OOOWWW!!! I HIT IT AGAIN!

FROM DOC SOO:what happen what happen? you ok??? (so worried! hahahs doc soo likes to 大惊小怪) very funny. i clean your wound luh, see bleeding already.

FROM ME:AAAHH!! REALLY??!! OMG IT'S REALLY BLEEDING! HOW??!! OMG I'M GONNA FAINT...

FROM DOC SOO: you better faint now if you want. it's gonna hurt. HEEHEE. <-- EVIL DOCTOR!

HAHAHS WHAT AN INTERESTING CONVERSATION BETWEEN DOC SOO AND ME! DOCTOR SOO THE LAME AND ACT COOL AND THINKS-THAT-HE'S-SUPER-HANDSOME DOCTOR! (:

tomorrow.

2009-09-02T22:35:00.002+08:00

what will tomorrow bring?
oh gosh my toe is still hurting and i feel like just chopping it off with the knife my mum used just now to chop a chicken's head. AAAAHHH!!! what can i do to lessen my pain?!
sorry zhen hui, maybe you can give me the lexus biscuits on friday!

dear god, i pray for my injured toe. i pray that it will recover asap, and that minsheng's cold will also recover soon! i pray that god, you can allow me to have time for shepherding with my shepherd liling!amen! :D

I DON'T WANNA LOSE A TOE!

2009-09-02T14:14:00.002+08:00

yesterday i knocked my toenail out. today the doctor said that my toe is infected due to the moist plaster i was using. she said to go to the hospital to drain out the pus tomorrow. EEEWWW!!!! she already used the syringe to suck out so much pus and blood, and even used the operating knife to cut open that bump on my toe. AAAHHH!!! *pulls hair*
the whole process was SUPER PAINFUL CAN. i can still feel it now...D: that disgusting throb in my toe...DD: CAN SOMEONE JUST KILL ME NOW?!

oops sorry i forgot!

2009-09-01T17:12:00.004+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY TO ALL THE NOBLE TEACHERS IN THE WORLD!
BEAR HUGS TO: MR TEOH, MS CHUA, MRS TAN,MRS CHAN,MR TAN, MR LEOW, MS CHEONG, THE GEOG TEACHER(SORRY I DIDN'T WANT TO SPELL IT WRONGLY!),MRS SNG, MR LIN(SORRY OLIVIA!), MS LAW, MS FOO, MS LIN, 杜老师，潘老师(ERM...). THAT SHOULD BE ALL...
OH OH OH AND MS LEE(FOR SEC ONE GEOG!)
(: HAPPY TEACHERS DAY! WISHING ALL OF YOU GOOD HEALTH AND A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR CLASS! JIAYOUS! :D
ok i also wanna thank ned for teaching me so many stuff since i'm quite a new believer!(: happy teachers day to you too people! (:

xiaoru's birthday at kar chian's house!

2009-09-01T16:43:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAORU!
ok today wasn't a really great day. josh's brother's helmet knocked my toenail off! omg i never remembered bleeding so much in my whole life...i was so scared i started screaming like mad! so sorry for scaring all of you with my hysterical screams!
that was the bad part of my day. i went for caregroup gathering(aka xiaoru's birthday) limping and all that stupid sherry could offer was laughter at my limps and messing my hair with her umbrella. thanks man sherry. (:
then we went to sheng siong to buy ingredients for cooking lunch together. hahah gracey has never cooked before! so funneh!
then we played a (quite lame) game called Follow The Leader, to trick xiaoru so that we could prepare for her birthday. then after cutting the cake and the usual procedure, we affirmed her. i could see the tears in her eye...just wanna tell xiaoru that no matter what we'll always be here for you!!! :D
at around 3 sherry and me had to leave,sherry to go and tutor her godsister and i just had to go home. (: everything was quite nice. ooh and i loved the chocolates and yogurt! (:
yay i hope everything else will be fine for the rest of the day. and i hope that my toe will stop hurting! D:

faith is exactly what it takes to get through uncertainty.

2009-08-31T16:28:00.002+08:00

Faith is not necessary when you know how things are going to work out, - that's knowledge. It's in the time of unknowing that having faith is what sees you through to the other side. Faith is what gives you strength. Faith is that light in your heart that keeps on shining even when it's all darkness outside. Now is the time to keep that faith alive!
this was what i need at this point of time. i have tons of uncertainties that i need confirmation about. i shall give thanks to God for Him being such a great listener and also for picking me up when i fall.(:
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! BONNE FÊTE DES PROFESSEURS! HAHAHS. just felt like thanking all the teachers in the world for their hard work and effort they put into everything they do. (: everyone is a teacher, and is also a student. we learn everyday, and we also teach others stuff along the way. how nice. it's the 一传十，十传百 concept.(: nice!~

in god we trust :D

2009-08-30T17:52:00.002+08:00

True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own self with these emotions.
doesn't all this make sense to you? since God gave us so much, shouldn't we spread the love?
hmmm all that sounds too serious! let's talk about happy stuff. i've finished writing the notes for the o level packs i prepared for my cello bass seniors! woah i feel accomplished man! :D

nothing better

2009-08-29T19:59:00.002+08:00

WOOOAAAHH!!! hahahs pastor hong teck at service today was damn funny luh! hmmm i'm sure lok yan enjoyed herself, right? (:
anyway this week was...uneventful. all i can say is, 病魔已找上我. it isn't really nice you know? first, it was just a normal cough with runny nose. next it became fever,cough and runny nose with an inflamed throat. then now it's cough, runny nose, and inflamed throat and asthma --> triggered by cough that lasted too long.D: i feel like dying. but despite all my own problems, gracey's birthday celebration was definitely super super fun! let me "bring you on a journey" of gracey's birthday! (:
whee just the mention of this gets me really excited! firstly, i distracted gracey by asking her to accompany me and lok yan to daiso at plaza sing. so we WALKED THERE. those two lazies felt that the walk there was DAMN TIRING when i wasn't even perspiring. okayy maybe i was but that was due to the hot weather! hahahs, then i called kar chian (koh kar chng!! :D) to tell her my ingenious idea to stall grace, then she told us to reach the wanton stall at 11.30. so we went to plaza sing and WERE SUPER HIGH as we made our way up to daiso. i wasted alot of time in daiso(on purpose), then after i made my purchase, gracey said that she was thirsty and wanted a drink. the dumby lok yan led the (wrong) way to an imaginary macs which she thought was there, then since we couldn't find anywhere to get a drink, we decided to go back to the meridien to have a chat (and waste some more time) over a drink.
when we were back at the meridien i received a message from kar chian to meet everyone else at the lift at 12. so at 11.59 (grace i'm sure it was 11.59 not 12.04!) the three of us walked back to the cuppage plaza and we were late. UNEXPECTEDLY EVERYONE ELSE WAS LATER THAN US. HAHAHS.(: so in the end at around 12.15 we went into the auditorium by the back door. after a prayer we found our seats and enjoyed all of service! whoohoo and we had the song REAL for praise! yay! long time no hear! (:
after service the actual celebrations started! grace was told that she had three tasks she had to accomplish to get her final present. hahahs it was so disgraceful! lucky man, my birthday with the smashed cream was considered normal! :D hahahas grace had to wear the pink bunny ears and do the banana dance! (peel banana peel peel banana, chop banana chop chop banana, shake banana shake shake banana!)wanyi was so nice, she agreed to do it with grace at the entrance of nexus auditorium! thanks god for you wanyi!
next she had to hang a cardboard with the words "HAIL THE BIRTHDAY GIRL" on it. hahahs grace's face was so pink! pinky pig.
next she had to go to meridien and look for 红小姐, which kar chian wrote as 江小姐. and the 红小姐 was rachel fong! hahahs grace wrote "rachel" with her butt to get the clue! so funneh!~
then finally we walked to just acia WITH GRACE AND HER BUNNY EARS. hahahs kc asked a passer-by to help us take a picture in front of the Istana. EVERYONE WAS LOOKING AT GRACE!!!! :O hahahs at just acia we cut gracey's cake and affirmed her. although it was certainly "memorable", i'm sure grace enjoyed it! hahahs GO GRACEY!

dear god, we thank you for bringing our caregroup together on this day. please bless grace with the wisdom she needs for her practical exam. and bless her to grow in her walk with you. please bless our caregroup and everyone who needs your blessings! amen! (:

is it true? a bad start means a bad everything?

2009-08-25T15:44:00.003+08:00

i was allowed to go to school today. kaising am i really gonna look like you?! omgosh i don't want!!! :O

sigh the best thing of the week,i guess,will be going for service on saturday. and i hope lok yan can go too! (: jiayous lok yan!

my cough hasn't recovered after like,more than 1 month. and i feel like dying. the doctor said that my throat was badly inflamed yesterday. i guess that's the reason why i got slight fever last night. but at least my fever has gone away, if not my cough. i have to feel better soon!!! oh and my stupid handphone, keeps becoming faulty after a few days. i tired my best to fix it but IT JUST WON'T WORK!!! AND IT WON'T VIBRATE!!! i'm pulling all my hair out now.

i aim to do these by the end of this week:
1. study for maths test on friday.
2. try to get well.
3. make sure lok yan has fun at service(if she can go).
4. be happy.

(: i should tell myself jiayous now.

what a day.

2009-08-22T21:23:00.003+08:00

i was kinda sad today cuz my mum wouldn't allow me to go for service, even though i asked her twice. ): she said that i could go next week though! finally, shepherding with liling! wheehee!

anyway, today my mum was complaining in the car that we were facing a financial crisis and that everyone should stop spending money lavishly. i realised that that might be the reason why i wasn't getting a new handphone. ): i made a secret prayer and just now, my mum started screaming because she said that our uncle would return her the money he owed. and it was quite a big amount. (: my prayer really worked. this time god really heard my prayer. (:

想知道现在你好不好

2009-08-21T20:14:00.002+08:00

想知道現在你好不好
那些你給我的回憶　快樂也不少
少了你的未來我很好
只是離開的原因　好像我還忘不了
想知道現在你好不好
想問你還相不相信　當初的玩笑
少了你的未來我很好
早就不再相信他比我更重要

this is a new song by 范瑋琪. made me think of someone.
the 離開的原因 is because he refused to come back during his holidays. BECAUSE HIS PARENTS DID NOT ALLOW HIM TO. what a great reason.
Now i really 早就不再相信他比我更重要. that's why i'm becoming more and more 自恋 as the day passes by. hahah the influence from sherry also affects me though. (:

YAUXUAN PUTS MAKE-UP!! (what a random statement.)

(:

2009-08-21T15:17:00.003+08:00

all i can say is (:. i feel happy and that's it. (: no particular reason. (: just happy. (:
it's rare, but i really don't have much to complain about.(: i am going to continue adding a smile to the end of my every sentence. (: because that's the way i've been feeling ever since i joined y-hope. (: whee!~ (:

i guess it's getting kinda irritating to keep seeing (:. so i shall just use :D,:P,:] and many others. hahahah how random!!!

now let's see...i came home with lok yan and we chatted alot on the way home. and she wants to go for service with me! i'm so happy man. i walked home feeling super hyper, mainly because WE WON THE BASKETBALL MATCH and also because of loky(?? not sure how i should spell it) wanting to go for service with me. aaah so nice... omg sorry derrick, for using your laptop during tuition. i sure hope mr tan doesn't see this...:O

home econs lesson!

2009-08-20T09:36:00.000+08:00

hahah i'm having home econs lesson now! teehee. (:

laughs

2009-08-19T21:00:00.002+08:00

hahah i'm feeling hyper man! hyper hyper.
what a nice to reach home with your doggie waiting at the door for you. then when you enter she gives you a welcoming lick and looks at you with loving eyes. aahhh... i love my baby deedee! she's so cute!

SHOULDN'T I BE COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW MUCH I HATE CONTROLE 3? AAARRRHHH. FORGET IT. IT'S OVER. NO USE CRYING OVER SPILT MILK RIGHT? GOD HAS MADE HIS PLANS FOR ME.(:

a breath let out

2009-08-18T17:31:00.002+08:00

whew. i finally got my basketball team's spirit high again! although i'm not well today and couldn't practice together, i guess my notes for them worked and i got them to practice hard today! woah i feel so accomplished.:D thanks yiren! your "speech must have helped too"
apart from that happy event, everything else today is BAD. yesterday i helped an old lady push her grocery trolley all the way to her block at 406 (i live at 411) while she used my umbrella to prevent herself from getting wet, then i went home and caught a cold. runny nose (aka drippy tap), cough, sore throat, everything came. then after i vomited yesterday morning i had diarrhea too. 5 times yesterday, 3 times today(at least up to now). the stupid doctor said it was food poisoning when i was pretty sure it was stomach flu. aaahh! all i can do i crouch in my bed and pray that i get better and when i wake up, my stomach will stop hurting, together with the disappearance of the other illnesses. ):

dear god,i pray for everyone else who is ill to get well soon. i pray for olivia to be better and come back to school soon! and i pray for wanyi's mother, i pray that you'll heal her. and that wanyi will be given the strength to cope with the stress she has, and juggle them well. jiayous everyone! amen. (:

50% of something is better than 100% of nothing

2009-08-17T16:39:00.000+08:00

sigh.
super stressed now.
french exam on wednesday. check.
street basketball match with jurong east on thursday. check.
history test on friday. check.
sigh.

i guess i might not even have 50% of the team spirit going. will all this really end up as a 100% nothing? and please, joshua the vice-captain, you are supposed to help me, not help them slack! sigh, sorry guys, i had to call yiren back to speak to you all tonight. feels like a betrayal man...but anyway, this match with jurong east is really VERY VERY IMPORTANT to us, and i'm sure each of you know why. isn't this why we all worked so hard for? i've prepared some notes for each of you all, and since brian won't be there, weijie pass to him kayys? thanks people, and don't forget our motto,拼了!

let's talk about the happy stuff instead. yay i loved gym today! hahah cartwheels and straddle jumps are fun! and backward rolls are easy! of course it feels less painful on my bed, but well, it's nice too! whoohoo!

after school peining and i walked to amk. then on our way there the rain suddenly started pouring and we ran to a void deck! haahaahaa. after we finally made our way to amk, i made peining go with me to 7-11 to buy cup noodles, and she started complaining how much she hated cup noodles. teehee! oh oh oh and she also made me walk to the mrt station with my cup noodles! and i saw sean, that stupid sean who was also slacking today, and i totally dao-ed him. i made sure he saw me, then i turned in the other direction. although i feel really bad now, i was really pissed with all of them at that time and i didn't really considered how they would have felt. sorry sean! ):

well, i guess i have to give an apology to my whole team for threatening to quit as captain this morning, bet hey, we didn't even practice a single spin-dunk this morning! lazy poks you all...:P heeheehs go rest ok, tomorrow we'll have a great practice! whee!~(:

all in a week's note

2009-08-13T17:52:00.001+08:00

oh dear. what a up-and-down week i've had.
hmmm let's see.

monday was nice. nice public holiday. oh I LOVE SINGAPORE! i guess only that very important birthday can allow me to have a another day of fun and laughter.(: well, i spent the day mostly at home. oh and i talked to minsheng about how he has been so out of spirits during basketball. the reason, the DUMBEST reason i've ever heard, was that he lost a keychain his primary school english teacher gave him for scoring 100 in his spelling test. and the problem was that he actually didn't like that teacher of his. OH GOSH. teehee i talked for hours with him, then he said he felt much better and promised not to let such unimportant stuff bother him during practice anymore. and he said that i "had been a great comfort", like in those books. heehee. what a nice feeling to know that you've helped a friend feel better. so i should say THANKS MINSHENG!(:

tuesday. tuesday...i can say that it was certainly not as nice. i had stomachache (again) and diarrhea(again). i just don't understand why i never really recovered after taking the medicine. maybe its because the medicine didn't work. or maybe it was something i ate. sigh.): i went home early. and i didn't go for cca. i still feel really bad...i'm so sorry shimin! and everyone else too! well, i went home and had a super long nap until 6 plus. then my mum woke me up and it was time for dinner. yuck. i didn't want to eat!
then after forensic heroes 2, i chatted with peining and she told me that WEDNESDAY WAS THE LAST EPISODE OF FH2! i was DEVASTATED. ): i kept wondering what i should do after fh2 ends...

wednesday i can say, was definitely not too good. i was having stomachache(again) so i rested my head in the table. panezilla scolded me and asked me to wake up, so i told her the reason. she nodded her head. then i dunno why, maybe she didn't hear or something, she called me again when i rested my head again. i was so irritated that i just repeated to her about my stomachache in a very 不爽 voice. she nodded her head AGAIN. after that she called the whole class to stand up. then one by one she allowed people to sit. i was stupefied when she told fran to sit. EH PLEASE, FRAN WAS THE ONE WHO WAS REALLY SLEEPING, I WASN'T! then i couldn't stand my pain anymore and i told her i was having stomachache FOR THE THRID TIME. THIRD. and she said 不知道你是真的痛还是假的痛。WTH?! even after that she still didn't allow me to sit, and i was dying. nice fran wanted to stand with me, but i felt bad about it so i asked her to sit down. i was really steamed that she actually said such a thing. ):
despite all the depressing stuff, french was still fun!pearly,weiling and nicole came with us! whee!~ hahah the french teacher told us to write a short composition like thingy, so fran and i started on it. at least fran did.(: then he wanted to help us with it, so he came over to our table AFTER GIVING US THE TOPIC OF "A STUDENT GOT INJURED BY A FISH". HOW INTERESTING YA?
anw the really bad stuff happens now. when i was at home i hinted to my mum about my Christianity by telling her about the sexuality eudcation(education actually, it was typed wrongly on the slides!) and how God actually helps in the development of our good morals. then she flared up.): and my dad actually added that maybe i shouldn't get my new handphone. OH GOSH, was i feeling down! I HEREBY CLARIFY THAT I DO NOT CRY EASILY. i was feeling really depressed, so i made a little prayer and i felt better, knowing that God will always be with me no matter what happens. and i went to sleep feeling great!

today. hmmm, today is...not too bad. but i had diarrhea in the morning before i left the house. then in school my stomachache persisted(again). i finally couldn't take it anymore and requested to go home. so my mum came to fetch me. nothing much really. oh and i have to thank lynn and congying for the trouble! thanks lynn for running up and down for me. and to congying for coming back to class to open the door for me. btw HOPE YOU ENJOYED MY CUPCAKES! that's about the end of today. i went home, had lunch, took my medicine, then slept till now. (: teehee.

sigh there's still a chinese test tomorrow, hope it goes well! good luck peining,priscy, olivia,janice,sherry and fran! and to everyone else too! jiayous baby! :D

FRIDAY!~ i simply love fridays! don't you? that nice feeling that you can finally rest after such a tiring week...(: hahah art today after school was dreadful, cuz peining wasn't there when priscy and i needed help most.): but we still completed it! teehee still feeling kinda bad about the sloppy work though. anw tuition just now was quite enriching, because I PLAYED XINHUI'S HP GAMES!! and there was harry potter and some game called blood+. heehee dun be jealous YX, because i played a harry potter game! :P haahaah this day hasn't been too bad apart from what peining said this afternoon which mad me really sad...i bet she still doesn't know what it was she said that made me sad...): never mind forgive and forget!

ooh ooh ooh one more thing. thanks yauxuan for listening to my complaints. and to peining too.(: last but not least, good luck liling! you're doing great for a new shepherd! thanks for your continuous support all this time i've been a christian! GO BABY!